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Who I am

I’m not the body that dies
on missing a beat or one breath.
I’m not the mind, so fickle,
I’m in heaven one moment, and next in hell.

I’m the moments I live,
not the ones, in which I just exist.
I’m the dreams I dream,
those fulfilled, and not just yet.

I am the occasions I grace
and those, missed, where I am.
I am the words I spoke,
those I wrote, and those I will.

I am all that I create,
and the stuff that I catalyse.
I am the love I receive,
and all of it that I spread.

Don’t cry, when I die,
for I never really will.

Just another bunch

Come spring –
a fresh lease of green
drapes the bare branches.

The leaves, dancing and whistling
to the tunes of the wind
playing, screaming, and singing,
in each other’s company, enjoying.

Singing to one another
promises of sticking together,
come what may, through it all.

The song goes on,
but the count goes down,
not noticed or just unacknowledged,
first by one and then by many more.

the song, still, goes on.
And the promises too, of course.
The song goes on and on and on.

Until silence falls upon, when all
of them are gone. The tree, knowing well,
watches on – it won’t be long before
a new bunch springs up to sing the song.

Good, Bad or Human?

Well, this could be called a post after ages, considering that most of previous posts have just been ‘news reports’. I have been wanting to make a post since long, but I probably lost it. I really am unable to write anything that I find worth posting [It does raise questions about the existence of this blog. I’m writing this, to answer that question to myself.]

This post is provoked by an act of sharing, an act of kindness, an act of goodness, that surprised me. This post isn’t about the act itself, but it’s about me being surprised. Why on earth should I (or anybody) be surprised, when someone is just being human? Aren’t human beings meant to be and feel human?

I wonder why people say, “this is a bad, bad world.” I find a lot of goodness and humanness around me. Unless I strain my memory really hard, I can only recall people who try to be as good and nice as they can be; People trying to be as human as possible. Either there’s something utterly wrong with my judgment of people or there’s something wrong with the general feeling that the world is a bad, bad place.

There’s one other possibility that just strikes me – I am so nice to people that, everyone else tries to be nice with me. I don’t think I am such a big deviation from the average. I’m just another goat, in the great herd.

And another one, I’m in a really special place, presently. I have been only to the special places. I have visited only the places that are at an extreme, far away from the ‘average’ place in the world. But, given I’m just another goat in the great herd, this is very unlikely. I am probably grazing at a random spot on the great grasslands.

Since these are ruled out, it boils down to either a wrong judgment or a wrong general feeling.

Coming to my judgment, I wouldn’t call myself an Oracle or the wise one, but I’m no dumb ass either. Well, taking the statistical route, the number of times I’ve had any real “nasty” surprises in dealing with people has been much lesser than the number of times things turned out nearly as expected. My judgment could, therefore, possibly given some credibility.

So, that leaves me with just one possibility. The idea that the world is a bad, bad place is not entirely true, if not completely absurd and outright wrong. The world is really a nice place, with “human” beings inhabiting it. The nasty surprises that you get, really are the surprises and not the general rule.

To do or not to do

Achieve something, I’m often reminded,
achieve something, something that’s worthwhile.
Don’t just kill time, they say,
for, brutally, it shall kill you someday.

Make the best use of time, I tell myself,
for I realize, how I spend my days
is how I’m spending my life and
I’m going to get just one of it!

But, what is worthwhile, I wonder
everything seems so good one moment
and all meaning vanishes the very next.
I’m utterly confused, somebody help!

Pick one from, spoke my brother,
the ‘everything’ that seems good
and do it right, just, do it right!
Life, as you live through it, shall
teach you to do things that are right
and at the end of it all, you’ll
never regret what you’ve done
but, only what you couldn’t!

—-

Inspired by
1) a late-night conversation with a friend
2) Annie Dillard, “How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives”

who am I?

dead and lifeless, in a box I lie
just my size, to be buried deep somewhere,
arranged with flowers, bright and fragrant
more alive than dead, are they
the final goodbye I have said,
gone am I, never to return–but
who am I, who am I, who am I?

am I —
the knowledge I arduously gained,
from all the books I read and re-read.
the wealth and riches I made,
at the cost of sweat, often also blood.
the skill with utmost care I groomed,
for that, today, has me world-renowned.
the numerous battles I braved,
where win or loss never, only a fight mattered.
all those dreams I dared to dream,
and the goals I never, or have, reached.

None of it, I realised, am I,
but, who am I, who am I, who am I
deep and loud, for one last time I wonder
“the difference, you make to the world,
is who you are”, my Master answered,
“Life’s fragrance is in service,
it grows and unfurls, far and wide,
long after you are lifeless and dead”

arbit blab

Well, just another post to make it clear that

  • I’m still alive
  • I haven’t forgotten that I have a blog
  • I haven’t forgotten my blog’s password
  • I haven’t lost the ability to write arbit crap.
  • I’m not busy with anything interesting
  • My Keyboard works fine

Arbit stuff going on around me off-late.

  • We’ve had our official farewell; So we’ve officially bid goodbye to B.I.T.S – Goa. People tried their best to make the occasion appear “senti” but it seemed more like “psenti” for me.
  • I wonder why our VC calls BITS as B.I.T.S; is it something similar to people choosing to call SAP as S.A.P?
  • Most of the advice given was of a copy-book style. But I liked one of them, though it wasn’t expressed well enough for me – Learning from Books still remains an important way of learning, even if work teaches you a LOT.
  • College now has its own Debian Repository hosted on a server running Hardy. Hats off to bad_sector for showing the enthu to get things done. The LUG here’s got a great bunch of people right now and its growing in leaps and bounds. I’m excited.
  • A couple of my friends picked up Debian recently and apparently both of them are loving it thoroughly. Linux, as addictive as ever.
  • It’s been a while since I’ve been on the winning side in carroms. Its so boring to be on the losing side for so long.
  • Word is not a document exchange format[1]; Use html, plain text, pdf or the open document format.(if you are not averse to openness) [I mention this now because I faced a lot of trouble recently trying to handle some .doc files which replaced the html pages that were being used on the PS site.]
  • So often, little things get blown out of proportion, so quickly. Or its just that not everybody sees them as ‘little’ things.
  • On slow connections, the download ‘handler’ of firefox does really poorly. It’s next to impossible to download anything over half an MB.
  • This from the preface of SICP[2],a text book for an introductory course on Computer Programming at MIT

    Our design of this introductory computer-science subject reflects two major concerns. First, we want to establish the idea that a computer language is not just a way of getting a computer to perform operations but rather that it is a novel formal medium for expressing ideas about methodology. Thus, programs must be written for people to read, and only incidentally for machines to execute. Second, we believe that the essential material to be addressed by a subject at this level is not the syntax of particular programming-language constructs, nor clever algorithms for computing particular functions efficiently, nor even the mathematical analysis of algorithms and the foundations of computing, but rather the techniques used to control the intellectual complexity of large software systems.

    I would like to see a few courses developed on similar lines here.

  • Gmail themes are good. I only tried the “Terminal” theme, though. I loved it!
  • For the very first time, I upgraded a distro. I successfully moved to Intrepid from Hardy. (and that too with the campus net!) This was before the repositories had been set-up. Now, it should be a much simpler job to achieve the same
  • Just got the news of more Violence in Mumbai; What the hell do these people want? I end this post here.

Here’s an xkcd strip I liked.


Links:
[1]Word is not a document exchange format — http://www.goldmark.org/netrants/no-word/attach.html

[2]Structure and Interpretation of Computer Programs (Preface) — http://mitpress.mit.edu/sicp/full-text/book/book-Z-H-7.html#%_chap_Temp_4

What is… ?

This is a free world,
you are free to will and whim,
can it, at the cost of,
your brother n his freedom,be?

Life is price’less’,
the big shots say, we realize.
is it why, you sell ya brethren’s life,
cheaply, for personal gain?

The human’kind’, we call ourselves,
aren’t the rivers, the air,
the forests or our mother earth,
worthy of our acts of kindness?

We are making rapid strides,
from the micro to the nano,
is it just in sci & tech, or does
it coop in our loves and lives too?

The world’s a small place,
the wise and learned say,
is that why, not all have,
a roof, under which to stay?

Its a world of press n media,
is it why we are pressed at,
with news that’s dubious,
in truth and worth as well?

We are all for world peace, they say,
do you alone, make up “the world”? I ask
How else would war, uncalled for
bring about world peace?

I want my piece is all I hear.

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